Thursday, July 29, 2010


Saturday, July 24, 2010

A Bend In The Road

When we feel we have nothing left to give
And we are sure that the “Song has ended”;
When our day seems over and the shadows fall
And the darkness of night has descended.
Where can we go to find the strength
To valiantly keep on trying,
Where can we find the hand that will dry
The tears that the heart is crying?
There’s but one place to go and that is to God
And, dropping all pretense and pride,
We can pour out our problems without restraint
And gain strength with him at our side;
And together we stand at life’s crossroads
And view what we think is the end,
But God has a much bigger vision
And he tells us it’s only a bend;
For the road goes on and is smoother,
And the “pause in the song” is a “rest”,
And the part that’s unsung and unfinished
Is the sweetest and richest and best;
So rest and relax and grow stronger,
Let go and let God share your load,
Your work is not finished or ended,
You’ve come to “A bend in the Road”.
Helen Steiner Rice

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


comes a time in life when you walk away from all the pointless drama and people who create it, and surround yourself with people who make you laugh so hard that you forget the bad and focus on the good. Life is too short to be anything but happy. AMEN!! ( Thanks to my friend Terri for reminding me)

Saturday, July 10, 2010

I need to get out of my FUNK

It's a beautiful day out today and here I sit at my computer feeling tired, bored, uninterested, unmotivated, blah, blah, blah. I'm feeling Depressed lately. I don't think any thing triggered it. I think it's because my body feels so bad. It triggers the depression and it becomes a vicious cycle. I wish my mom were here. She is the only one who really understands how I feel. That is because her and I are so much alike and have pretty much the same health issues. She lives about 2 hours away so can't just click my fingers and have her here. Guess I should call her. I wish I had some close friends in this city. Since we moved here years ago I never really got close enough to someone to talk about just everything. You know what I mean. There are several houses on my street for sale and all the time I say, Oh I hope there is someone I can become close friends with. Every one is too busy to do any thing, including me. I do have friends, and very good ones too, but it's not like we get together all that much. I miss my best friend from back home. I could tell her any thing. But right now I'm in this don't want to even leave the house mode. I need to get out of my funk man, shake it off. My daughters are grown and have their own life and children. My teenager can't stay home long enough to have a conversation with. Plus Softball has taken up most her summer. I hate it when kids turn 14. There is just somthing that happens that makes you feel like your losing them. It's sad really, but a natural mile stone. The person who once thought you were better than chocolate chip cookies, now has her own friends and activities. It's right, but just sad. I miss our time together as I did with the first two also. Makeup, cell phones, boys, and friends have taken my place. She's my last one:( . Ya know, I'm going to be an awlful empty nester! ha! Any one else feel this way????

Thursday, July 8, 2010


F- Fibro Fog,forgetfulness, frustrating
I- Irritable Bowel Syndrome among other-
B -Barely able to move in the morning
R- Rest is very important, REM sleep impaired
O- Often can't do things I'd like to
M- Magnified pain & sensitivity to stimuli(noise,light etc).
Y- yes I look normal but I do have an illness
A- All over chronic body pain
L- Limited mobility
S- Some times I cry because I feel awful
I- I never feel normal ,I want my life back!
A- Anxiety, Depression


Wednesday, July 7, 2010


We brought Tabby home from the shelter when she was around 9 months old. She is a house cat and we love her. Tabby is the only cat I know that won't play with cat toys. We have bought her several and she just ignores them. All she likes to do is lay around and sleep or stare out the window. She is fat and very lazy. She has a nice bed but is never in it. This photo is one of the very rare occasions in which she was actually laying in her bed. She likes to get up in the lounge chair when we are gone and sneak a nap when she can. She takes turns sleeping in different places. She'll sleep with my daughter for several weeks and then she'll decide she wants to sleep with me and my husband. Eventually she ends up in front of the window staring outside into the night. She is just one big hairy lazy lovable cat. She is MY cat and I love her.

Monday, July 5, 2010

A Crappy Day

Today has been a crappy day. Actually this weekend hasn't been to good. Rain, Rain go away. Rainy days make me sad. I've felt like this all my life. Just like when the sun sets I feel sad. It's beautiful, but lonely. I know it's weird. My fibro has been pretty bad lately. The rain makes it worse. When I hurt all over it is hard to get motivated to do any thing. Getting out of bed is my first big task of the day. I move at a snails pace while my body tries to adjust to the standing position.
Every thing and I mean Every thing hurts. All I want to do is snuggle up with my blanky on the couch and sleep. Today did have a happy spot in it. My daughter plays softball and I was able to see her game because I was also off work. It is the little things like that, that keep me going. Time for bed. God Bless.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

The dailey thorn in my side, and everywhere else.

One of the things I deal with daily is my Fibromyalsia. You may not know what that is but I live with chronic pain every day. Most of the time I feel like a mack truck ran over me, seriously. It not only affects your body but also your nervous system and alot of other things.The list is too long to write. It actually affects your entire being.
They say Fibro is not life threatening, however it is life altering. We that suffer from it may look normal but we are in pain. Pain just becomes our new normal. To learn more about Fibromyalsia click here.

Friday, July 2, 2010

So, what about shoes??

Aren't shoes fun?? I love shoes! They come in so many styles and colors. High heeled, flats, wedged, open toed, closed toed, pointy toed, square toed. Then there are tennies, clogs, crocks, swing backs, flip flops, sandals, boots, also sparkly, shinny, with a pattern, and solid colors too. How many pairs of shoes does one need? It gets confusing buying them but it's oh so delightful when you finally decide which ones to take home. Knowing secretly you wanted a pair in every color. Why do we buy shoes that hurt our feet? Is style more important than comfort? Well of coarse it is! We all know that. Ahhh, shoes...