Tuesday, August 31, 2010

ART SCULPTURES-Down Town Des Moines IA

My Daughter took me sight seeing. (even though I've lived here for about 9 years) We had a
great day together:)

From the book eat pray love by Elizabeth Gilbert

"It's not fair for you to come here, "I tell Depression. "I paid you off already. I served my time back in New York." But he just gives me that dark smile, settles into my favorite chair, puts his feet on my table and lights a cigar, filling the place with his awful smoke. Loneliness watches and sighs, then climbs into my bed and pulls the covers over himself, fully dressed, shoes and all. He's going to make me sleep with him again tonight, I just know he is.." Somehow I relate to this quote.

Monday, August 30, 2010

I think I'm starting to get comfortable with my "young" age.....maybe

AGE, it's a funny thing. Does it really matter how old you are?? If not then why do we think it does? Seems when you get to be a certain age, lets say 40 ish, a person, especially women I believe, start to become uncomfortable with their age. I know I did. I didn't want to turn 40. I was like omgosh, I'm 40!!! Then I started to look in the mirror more to see how many more wrinkles I had each day. I started wondering where all the years went. Now I'm the big 50, soon to be the bigger 51 !
eek! Boy, when I turned 50 I did not want that birthday. I secretly wished I could start declining in years, but soon found out that no matter how many times you tell yourself your a year younger, you aren't. I felt like it was now all down hill. Where did my life go? Why are my kids all grown up? What happened to the time? I wasn't done holding them on my lap and rocking them to sleep. One day I looked and they were teenagers and then 2 were grown up with kids of their own. It is weird to think I have a daughter older than the age I was when I had been married for 12 years and divorced with 2 kids and almost married again. I look back and wonder was I a good mother? Was I too strict? One thing your children learn when they get older and have kids is that we parents make mistakes too.
It's sort of nice when the circle is complete. But you have to wait so long after saying "some day when your a mom you'll understand". But eventually they do. :)
Next month I will be 51. So what? I'm beginning to reallize that your age is just that, your age. I have alot of wisdom from all the years I've lived and it's sort of nice to say to yourself, hey, let the younger ones do that. I have a right to relax. I can take a nap when I want to. Sometimes I still think I have to act like I was 20 and do EVERYTHING. Especially now since I have fibro I have to give myself permission to say no when I don't want to do something. Don't get me wrong..I totally do way too much! It's still hard to say no sometimes. I guess I tend to mourn the person I use to be, the younger me. Lately though, I'm feeling more comfortable being the age I am. I have 3 beautiful daughters and 3 beautiful grandkids and another on the way. I want to look at my age as a new chapter in life waiting to unfold. Sure there are times when I wish I could feel as good as I did when I was 20 or even 30, but time and health issues get in the way. I have to accept who I am and what age I am. After all I am far from being old! That's the other thing, every decade that passes, the next one to come always seems it will be the one that is "OLD", not the one your in at the time. Each year that goes by I'm another year older, wiser, and have to highlight my hair more often. That's life! Now today this is how I feel. Tomorrow I may feel completely different.

Fibro & Massage Therapy

I am posting this link because Massage therapy is one of the most helpful things I get to help my pain and tightness, in my body and to improve my range of motion. No it doesn't make me pain free, but it does loosen me up. If you suffer from fibro you know the awful tightness and pain all over your body every day and every time you move . A deep tissue massage, along with myofascial release along with other tecniques help me to move better and not feel stiff as a board all the time. Stretching helps in the same way. Hope this article is helpful to you.http://http://www.fibromyalgia-symptoms.org/fibromyalgia_massage.html

Saturday, August 28, 2010


Last weekend I went home to attend an unofficial class reunion. We had a picnic potluck at the park. This was open for any one who who attended the highschool I graduated from. We had a mixture of my age and slightly younger and also older alumni who graduated in the 60's and even 50's...One before I was even born. I thought this was really neat. If was fun to meet all these people I hadnever met before but had a common bond with....Our Highscool. They all felt like old friends. A gathering such as this will be held every year now. I thank my friend Bob for planning this one when he lives so far away. Great job Bob! You know I love FaceBook. I have connected with so many classmates since I joined. Most of which I really didn't hang with during school but now feel like I've known them forever..The are my best friends now. I truely believe that I have talked with most of them now on facebook more than I ever did in school! Weird huh? It's sort of funny that when Iget an invite from someone I usually have to look them up in my year book...yes, that makes me old i guess. We have all changed and yet we havent. We look he same but older. We are more friendlier. Have alot in common such as kids and grandkids, diorce for some of us and illnesses . I'm glad I found you all or that you found me. I will not grow old alone S:)

Floods of 2010


Friday, August 27, 2010

More Fibro Information

My husband sent me this site to look at and it has alot of interesting info on Fibro and how some doctors dont see it as a disease or anything else but thinks it's just in the person's head....Well that doctor better hope he or someone he loves never gets it! Why is it that when men complain about a problem or pain or what ever they have something wrong with them, but when a women complains they are told it is just all in their head?? Seriously, this is not fair! I am out raged at this and others should be too. Think of all the women out there and probably men too that are crying out from pain or desperately needing some answers to what it wrong with them and their doctors don't help them. I remember when I was diagnosed, I was just relieved at that point to finally have a name to what was happening to my body. Women, take charge of your health! If your doctor dismisses your complaints of pain and other fibro symtoms, it's time to FIRE THAT DOCTOR AND GET A NEW ONE!
There is a National Fibromyalsia Day for recognition of this illness. I can't remember what the date is so if anyone out there can tell me please do. Thanks!click here>

Sunday, August 1, 2010


HEY WHEN SOMEONE NEEDS HELP, HELP THEM OK! If you see someone needing the door held open for them get up and hold it. When you see someone fall down, pick them up. When you see someone who is hungry, feed them. When you see someone hurting, comfort them. Don't sit there and do nothing. You should treat others how you want to be treated, especially someone older or disabled. You will be in their shoes one way or another some day and will want or need help, and won't you be hoping someone gets up and helps you? ANOTHER THING, DON'T BE LAZY! If you get something out, put it away. If you make a mess, clean it up. If you use another person's things, ask first and put it back when you are done with it. Treat others how you want to be treated. IT IS CALLED RESPECT! FIND IT, KNOW IT, BREATH IT, USE IT!